Fri 12 Jun 26: Kinda like this new schedule -- ticks all the boxes, great --- A weird morning. Du nn o how to put my finger on exactly how, just the normal rhythm's changed somewhat. The morning commute's weather were a lot better than the past wk, which were at least that much better than rain... but all the usual touchstones haven't been working, as if goalposts have moved somehow... Not for the important stuff, really... but as an aspie I tend to notice details more than most. Patterns are things that sort of buzz under my skin... and I get used to those frequencies as a sort of familiar, calming thing, best I can figure. So when they change, I notice. People are oddly beginning to diverge in their habits, between accelerating pace, and decelerating. So the delta between's become broader and more noticeable. The feeling's collectively more disjointed, more cynical (which I'm convinced, the bulk of drivers on-road on this island, are looking for any trigger to leave a semblance of unity and order), whilst the new slow-and-fine-with-it group I've noticed and settled into, are actually slowing down even more -- past the practical speeds the 5G needs to get best mpg -- which is pretty slow, given I'm rarely over 55 now, if can be helped (old average was about that, so peak speeds were 60 - 65). Not only on-road tho -- even walking around, for a Friday it all seems rather scant... and who is there, actions feel quite scattered. Little things at the usual haunts, are being left undone all week (even thru the flaky weather which can unnerve us tropical schlubs and fortune-paying tourists). Usually Friday has the tweakers doing their dumbarse shens near pau hana time... but today, mostly they're absent. But little bits of sand in the figurative speedos, were everywhere. For example, no straws at Starbies in Target, all week. They constantly run out for a day, but never a whole week. Next were prices at the co-op market I love, which had snack preserved plums and other treats from China, Taiwan, and Japan I lurrrv: anything savoury with animal meat in it (mostly seafood), were over $12 a bag now, of perhaps 4 - 6 oz of product (pretty sudden jump from the ~$8 - $10 it used to be for same just 2 mos ago. Guess need to check up more often, as couldn't eat these snacks on the med). Next two were close calls, all because I'd resisted the urge to listen to the dying-but-still-present voice, to rush (behind wheel of 5G). Lastly, the bank employee, who were usually literally seconds off my wristwatch for opening at 0830 sharp... got there 2mins late and for the life of her, couldn't get the door to open -- we in line outside uncharacteristically waiting for her to get it together All are examples of things usually as reliable as life can be in this day and age... failing all at once, today. Being careful and taking that extra second, made these events roll off the back without incident... but still not as in-the-pocket as has been -- oddly enough, when it were raining more. Does someone born in a storm, still fit into the fractal of daily life better, when it's crappy outside? Nah, doubt it -- otherwise I'd have noticed. But doesn't rule out that certain things may tend to fall into line, at least as relates to the course of my life...? Have noticed signs of that, more than in-general. So maybe I think the kicker that let me know, someone up there wasn't going to let me keep riding this luck wave any longer than I have... was spilling a very troublesome food on the carpet, once home. Needs vacuuming and chemical cleaning... so a down-tools, non-deferrable FFS moment. These, am not all that good at figuring out the purpose of... as in past they've both heralded something good (almost like paying Charon the Ferryman, passage in a few coins), or just reinforced my day was going to be like this, until something (rarely known to me what) changes. So just trying to stay present, trying not to miss anything obvious, either everyday-practically, or in the weeds with my batshirt personal exps, I do know what to do about... Sorry if this seems overly foo-foo today -- not my intent. But more than other days, this feeling I need to be on alert, seems obvious enough to overcome my typical cognitive density --- more when afternoon's clients arrive
